Seriously, what are we doing as human beings? This experiment has completely failed, blew up on our faces. My friends have no space to put things on their table because it's taken by medicine. And they are away, traveling, so this sea of pills, "vitamins" and stuff they need to be "healthy" is only stuff they DON'T need to have during the week. 

I just read Billie Eilish has a condition that supposedly makes her associate things with shapes and colors. Isn't that imagination? If it's "associate", I think it it is. If it's "see" things as shapes and colors, then, I'm really tired of this world. A world I associate with shit but am more and more seeing as shit.

This has made me so uncomfortable. And then I get up, the AC is stuck again. I open the valve and this time, of course, a RIVER of water comes down from it, making the floor all wet, the bucket did nothing because there was so much water. And these dogs do nothing but pee and shit all over all the time. I can't take it anymore. Maybe pharma is not that evil. Maybe they are the only ones who could save us because I'm being foolish thinking I can live more than 40 (I'm 3 years away from that btw) without taking none of the thousand pills, vitamins and medicines my friends have all over their table.